Jim Miller

WELL I COULD GO ON AND ON ABOUT JAMES MILLER, BUT I CAN'T :( SO LETS JUST START LIKE THIS, JAMES MILLER? WELL I HAVE KNOWN HIM ALL MY LIFE. REALLY BECAUSE OF SOFTBALL AND ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS, HIS BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER, BRIONA JANISE MILLER.JIM WASN'T THE TYPE TO JUST SIT AROUND AND WATCH T.V. JIM WAS ONE OF THE MOST OUT GOING, LOVING, HARD WORKING PERSON I HAVE EVER MET. HE WAS ALWAYS WORKING OUTSIDE, HE WAS YOUR EVERYDAY OUTDOORSMAN! BUT FOR ALL HE DID, HE ALWAYS TOOK JALEENA, BRIONA, AND I WERE EVER WE WANTED TO GO. JIM WAS JUST LIKE A NORMAL ADULT HE HAD PLANS, A JOB, AND A FAMILY, BUT THAT DIDN'T STOP HIM FROM TAKING US T-PEEING OR MOVIES OR EVEN A DRIVE. JIM ALWAYS CANCELLED HIS PLANS TO TAKE US PLACES.

I WAS PROBABLY OVER THERE EVERYDAY THIS PAST SUMMER.HE WAS ALWAYS THERE FOR US, HE ALWAYS KNEW ALL THE RIGHT WORDS TO SAY, AND ALL THE RIGHT ACTIONS TO TAKE. I NEVER KNEW THAT AT THE BLINK OF AN EYE THAT THOSE WORDS WOULD STOP :(  

WELL THAT NIGHT HE PASSED AWAY I WAS AT HOME SLEEPING . ALLI WAS OVER BECAUSE MY DAD WAS GONE AND MY MOM GETS SCARED VERY EASILY. SO SHE WOKE US UP AT ABOUT  1 A.M, SHE WAS CRYING BUT WE DIDN'T KNOW THAT IT WAS GOING TO BE AS BAD AS IT WAS. WE SHE TOLD ME I DIDN'T EVEN CRY, IT WAS WAY WAY WAY TOO MUCH FOR A PERSON TO HANDLE. I KEPT TELLING MY SELF "HOPE WAKE UP! WAKE UP!" BUTI NEVER DID FROPM THE NIGHTMARE. I NEVER THOUGHT THAT JIM WOULD LEAVE ME. LEAVE ME, HIS FAMILY, FRIENDS... HE LEFT ALL OF US. AND NOW THERE IS A HOLE IN  MY HEART THAT WILL ALWAYS BE THERE AND NEVER EVER GO AWAY. EVERY DAY I THINK... WHAT IF I COULD JUST HEAR "HEY AL-FORD" ONE MORE TIME. IT SEEMS LIKE IS WOULD ALL BE DIFFERENT BUT IT'S NOT! NOTHING WILL EVER BE THE SAME, NOT TODAY, TOMORROW, OR A WEEK FROM NOW, HE WILL STILL BE GONE. 

BUT ONE LAST THING I JUST WANT TO SAY, JIM I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU IN HEAVAN! YOU CAN HELP ME SLIDE RIGHT TO HOME BASE LIKE YOU DID WHEN I WAS LITTLE, BUT THIS TIME IT IS REALY "HOME BASE." I LOVE YOU SOOOOO MUCH JIM THAT WORDS CAN'T EXPLAIN HOW I FEEL. LOVING YOU IS LIKE TRYING TO EXPLAIN HOW WATER TASTES... IMPOSSIBLE 

I LOVE YOU JIM, 

AL-FORD